Embracing My Shadow Around Celebrating My Feminine
Something I've been working on manifesting for months came through!!
Over the past year, I have booked small modeling gigs with local boutiques and salons without representation from an agency. All of which was a lot of fun, but were mostly traded for print or a gift card. I really wanted to book jobs that paid more and to sign with an agency. So, I added an agency contract to my manifestation list.
This brought up a TON of shadow for me, which I am still working through. Such as "not being good enough" and starting at 31. I know 31 isn't old, but a lot of models start when they're in their teens or 21, so this was something I needed to find expanders on and a belief I needed to let go of. Not feeling comfortable, being seen as "Sexy", or embracing my sensual side was another shadow aspect for me—mostly being afraid of it looking like I'm showing off or narcissistic.
So, I finally got up the courage and self-worth to apply, and I booked a meeting! I submitted the photos and videos they asked for and crickets! I didn't hear back for a long time. Earlier today I decided, if they don't want to sign me, it's ok, I know I can receive what I'm calling in without them or with another agency. I even said it to my partner.
I also had a ping to post a sexier photo on my Instagram, one I never had any intention of sharing, with a caption about embracing my shadow around celebrating my feminine, and more sensual side, which was very hard for me! I was actually inspired by a post on here, about being confident with nudity. I'm not joking, within the hour I had an email offering me a contact with the agency! I can't believe how quickly it happened! This work works! I know more good things are coming ❤️
