An Aligned Doctor & A Cabin Retreat in The Forest
Well well well. Look who manifested. Faith. In the past week, this word has popped up to me in posts, podcasts, songs and even people (named Faith!) I’ve been going through a MASSIVE rock bottom. Three months ago my boyfriend broke up with me. My photography clients have stopped booking. My savings have now officially run out. My skin is the worst it’s been in two years (out of nowhere). I’m back home living with my parents full time. And I could not be happier. Over a year ago I started doing Lacy Phillips work. I started with Inner Child. Then Unblocked Money. And then I avoided the work and my feelings for the rest of the year. About six months ago I joined The Pathway. Since then I’ve done Shadow, Rut, Rockbottom, Unblocked No, and redone Inner Child and Unblocked Money TWICE. Currently I’m working on How to Manifest. I know. A bit backwards. But I think I was scared of getting what I asked for. At the top of every wish list I write “this or something better in the name of my highest good” and “please give me what my heart and soul desire and not what I think I want.” I have been burned by the fire many, many times getting what I thought I wanted.Recently I’d been getting really annoyed and triggered every time Lacy said Aries are fast manifestors (I’m an Aries Sun, Mercury and Venus) and every time someone posted about something they manifested. I was starting to wonder if I was defective. So there I am. And it’s crickets. But, I keep doing the work. I’ve jumped off cliffs, I’ve said no (to people I don’t want to see and to things I don’t want to do), set boundaries with my family (they respect when I’m working now), found Expanders in real life and online (I had NONE), faced and embraced my shadow (fear of being seen, feeling emotionally unsafe and where that comes from). And I’ve been gentle with myself. It’s okay. It’s okay to be where you are, feeling how you are. Things are going to get better. I post about my rockbottom in the group and the resounding message is big things are coming, keep the faith. I’ve been dreaming, pinteresting, posting about and voice noting my friends about this fantasy I have of a cabin in the woods. Maybe Vancouver Island. Seattle. Sweden. Green. Misty. A sanctuary. I write on every manifestation wish list “restoration, maybe a massage?” So back to the skin. My skin over the past month or so has been getting worse and worse. It started with a bad reaction to new products. Normal treatment isn’t working. My mom suggests I see this holistic doctor she and my dad met by chance mooonths ago. I call her. She’s had a cancellation and I can come in THE VERY NEXT DAY. She’s usually fully booked. When I arrive I feel immediately calm. This place has good energy. And it is there that I meet the doctor of my dreams. She’s studied eastern and western medicine and is highly qualified. She knows about astrology. She even knows about HUMAN DESIGN. And get this, SHE’S A REFLECTOR. A unicorn. And a total light being. It was like my higher self was speaking to me. With gentleness and love and complete understanding. I tell her about my health problems, family and relationship troubles, my spiritual and emotional state, and theories like how my perfectionism and fear of being seen and always feeling unsafe is connected to my skin breaking out, “Of course it’s connected!” She says. I do a double take when she brings out the Doterra oils. You don’t get those here. She had to import them from Australia. So I’m now super calm, smelling amazing, it’s the end of the session and she mentions the retreat she’s hosting this weekend. I tell her I know about it and would’ve loved to book but can’t afford to go. “You know,” she says, “I asked the universe today to send me someone who really needs this retreat. We have one spot left. And I think it’s for you.” So. I am now a day away from going on a retreat AT HALF PRICE which I can pay over a period of three months. Tonight I got the email with everything I need to know about my weekend retreat. I’m told to bring warm clothes and boots because it’s unusually misty and cold even though it’s summer here. The email ends with: “You will sleep in a cabin in the forest, surrounded by owls, weavers and the occasional fish eagle.”
Happy Manifesting,
- Cath
WORKSHOPS
Inner Child / Money / Pathway / Shadow / How to Manifest / No / Rut / Rockbottom
