A Full Spectrum Of Manifestations In 5 Months!
Hi TBM community! In an effort to put out my shadow of being seen, I wanted to share with you all my manifestation journey over the past five months. I have been a pathway member for over a year, listened to every podcast but only really began connecting with the work since I reached out to Atarah in October 2020 after hitting rock bottom in all aspects of my life; home, work, relationships, and most importantly in my self-worth. I was completely lost and felt everything crumbling all around me. Working with Atarah has truly changed my life in such a short time; his understanding, compassion, perspective, and personalized homework have guided me through so much over these past couple of months.
Since I was in such a fragile state, I began gently tapping into my authentic code and magnetic self. This was transformative and gave me the strength to tap deeper into exploring recurring issues that stemmed from my childhood. Growing up, my childhood was traumatic; l was orphaned by the age of 8 years old; lived with my sister in an abusive foster family home for seven years, and was adopted when I was fourteen by my loving aunt and her husband. This journey brought me from Ireland to London, Saudi Arabia, and finally to the USA. Working through Inner Child was extremely tough. I felt drained at the end of every day, but the breakthroughs I was receiving kept me going.
It felt for the first time in my life like I could connect and really feel and understand as an adult what had happened to my sister and me as children. With Atarah’s help, we also worked on my understanding of the relationship I have with my sister, which is strained and difficult, but just understanding and being aware of how our childhood has affected us both in helping me deal with the triggers and reactions we both have. Throughout this time, I began with nothing on my manifestation list as I was more focused on working through this healing. However, Atarah explained to me the importance of micro manifestations and building your trust.
Since I couldn’t think of anything I specifically longed for, I wrote down that I wanted to ‘feel lucky, surprised, or win something.’ Not even a week later, I was at my hair salon, which I have been going to for years, and they said, “oh, it’s your birthday month, so you get a free product.” This has never happened to me before, and I also have never seen them offer it to someone else. I knew it was a sign from the universe. The weeks went on, and more surprises came my way, a refund from a medical bill I paid. Adobe gave me a ‘new customer deal’ price even though I have been a customer for 10+ years.
This feeling was so incredible. I added more to my list. I wanted signs to come into my life to remind me I am on the right path. They started coming. One, in particular, was in a book I was reading that said, “this book is in your hands, it is there for a reason, it is an invitation from the universe to connect and discover your truest, bravest, and brightest self.” These were magical moments for me. My list continued to grow. November brought many more physical manifestations - an infrared sauna mat, an essential oil burner, I manifested selling all the furniture in my apartment for the prices I listed them for since I wanted to redecorate.
I finished working through Unblocked Inner Child in early December, and that’s when things started to really uplevel. I have wanted to move for several years to a new larger apartment with more light, however every year at the time of renewing my lease, I have either left a job or been let go from a job, or my boyfriend has been out of work, and in New York, it is almost impossible to get approved for an apartment without income. I got a ping one night to browse Streeteasy and saw a unit online that was only a couple blocks away that looked so nice. Without even thinking, I contacted the broker for a tour. My boyfriend and I viewed the space the next day and immediately wanted it.
Without hesitation, we decided to apply, understanding that I didn’t have a job at the time, and my boyfriend had taken only a part-time job since losing his full-time job when COVID hit. Although this was of concern, all the paperwork came together so easily, so we went for it. The following days, I worked on the prosperity DI’s, and a couple of weeks later, we were approved! I even got a ping to check my old journal and found that I had written a list for what I wanted in a new apartment, and this apartment checked every box in October. On the day of submitting our move-in fees, I woke up to a Tax Refund in my bank account that I had been waiting for nine months! Another sign from the universe.
We got our keys on January 1st, and that’s when the tests started. The following weeks were really tough. Everything that could go wrong started going wrong, but I could see that these were all tests to show the universe I was ready and deserving of this uplevel, that’s not to say I didn’t struggle, and at times questioned if this was all a mistake, but I did continue with the work, trying to understand what these tests were linked to and how I could show the universe I was ready for this new level. With passing each test of standing up for myself, speaking out, being seen and heard, the problems began to be resolved, and I am so incredibly happy with this new apartment that feels authentic to my code. It also hit me with a wave of emotion, walking down the street the other day, that after working through Unblocked Inner Child and never feeling like I had a home growing up. I felt that I finally have my own home now and what a beautiful gift it is.
There is also something I think we should all share, to help comfort and support each other, and to understand that even though all these incredible manifestations may be happening, it can feel uncomfortable and unnerving at the same time. This was foreign to me as I was expecting myself to feel a certain way like everything would be perfect and that then I could share my story. This has proven to me as humans, we can be going through a spectrum of emotions all at the same, and that is so beautiful. So much greatness has come into my life in the past couple of months, and I’m so incredibly grateful for this work, yet I also feel like I am grieving my childhood for the first time in my life.
I feel like I am connecting with my inner child and just feeling intense emotions in all the little moments of the day. I hope this will help any of you who may be feeling the same way, and I’m here to help support you and listen. Also, my manifestations keep coming.. amazing new furniture for my apartment, a set of $4000 dining chairs for $600! It’s truly incredible to be seeing your dreams manifest before your eyes. 💫
