Strengthening My Trust Muscle & A Solo Trip to Ireland
Name: Liz Palmer
Where do you reside?: St. Louis, Missouri
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: White, middle class
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?:
-an aligned partner who meets my list
-a cheap solo trip to Banff
-$1000/month in extra income from my side business
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: ALL OF THEM
My biggest block is control- I've realized it makes me feel safe, so I can comfort my inner child and make room for fear and don't turn away from it. I do DI's just about daily, but I couldn't select just one workshop or DI that's been most helpful.
Finding and keeping my authentic code front of mind has been extremely helpful
What expanders did you find?:
Relationship Expanders: Kourtney and Travis, Megan Fox and MKG, Chelsea Handler and Jo Koy, a couple I know IRL who is expansive to me
business: I was my own expander + other artists on IG
Travel Expanders: I started asking friends who are great at traveling on their own for accounts to follow on IG
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: Broke up with my boyfriend, old flings kept coming back, and I told them no!! I put myself out there more and went to dinners alone. I stood up for myself and held boundaries with my friends I haven't before. When anxiety and fear is triggered, I let it be there and comfort it rather than try to be strong
I know I've failed tons of triggers- but they're small, and I'm aware at the moment I'm failing because of how I feel. I look for tests daily and just lean on my authentic code to act accordingly.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I did experience a small magic dark- I think. It's hard to tell because I enjoy the peace and being alone! I could FEEL my manifestation orbiting, but no pings would come through other than basically "don't move" "stay where you are." And with the trip, NOTHING came through at all to the point where I was like, oh maybe I need to think about this more actively. I don't really know if I was in a magic dark because I have a strong trust muscle- when starting this work, I was able to CLEARLY see all of my past manifestations and how easily they came when I'm in my worth- part of my authentic code is "ease.". So, I know it's for me when it lands in my lap easily. I'm ok in the magic dark
How did your manifestation come through?: Well, I broke up with my boyfriend and within two weeks received a 20k raise at work and was contacted for a feature in a local magazine for my side business!! I took about six weeks off social media to heal, and when I came back, it was the day of a popup event for my art business- I exceeded my $1000k/month manifestation on that day alone! And so far, I'm on track for November as well.
When I broke up with my ex, I KNEW he was the one I wanted to be with, but he and I were not living authentically in our own codes, and he didn't do the work, but he was aware he needed to change. I broke up with him- I had been getting pings to for weeks but didn't want to. My pings said that our best relationship would be to start as friends and rebuild a strong foundation that we didn't have before. I can intuitively feel that our journeys are not done together, but I had to get back in my worth completely, and so did he. I also trusted the universe to bring me my most aligned partner, whether that turned out to be him or not.
I've been FEELING him in my orbit, but part of my list for a partner is one who takes the initiative and puts in equal work. So although I can feel that he's doing the work and that he misses me, I stayed strong in my own worth and my fear that he might not be the one and let that be ok. Yesterday out of the blue, he texted me that he had missed me the whole time, and it's only been intensifying, but he wants to stay the course by giving both of us space to continue to build our own foundations. I agreed completely, and we are going to slowly start to rebuild a friendship and begin to see each other in person next month and take it very slowly!! I know Lacy always says to just run into the fire with exes, and in this case, I do have to. I know we are not done together- whether there's more for this relationship to learn or my aligned partner grows with.
Of course, doubt about settling crept in, but I can feel the difference between pings and fear-based anxiety now. Plus, I knew I was on the right track when my dad called later that night... As we were talking about a wedding he's going to in Ireland for his stepson (it's super small, and I've only met the stepson once), I said I was jealous and waiting on my invite! Dad said I was welcome to go (and we've talked about this wedding several times, and he hadn't said this before because it's so small), so I asked for dates and flights so I could start saving. He said, "Well, I think I can just pay for your ticket." And this is hilarious because I know it wasn't him that blurted that out!! It was my manifestation coming through because then he was like, "Oh shit, why did I just offer that?!" lol, but he's sticking to it, and I promised I'd treat it as a solo trip and stay out of his hair! So not Banff, but a free trip to Ireland?? Absolutely!
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: All of this happened within about three months- I am committed to the work as a recovering control-freak perfectionist
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: almost daily. I don't beat myself up for taking a couple of days off here and there. I love these DIs. I put triggers in my phone notes as they arrive, and often now, I can look at a trigger and unravel it without a DI, but ones that are sticky are saved in my phone to go work out if I need to
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I'm very lucky to live alone and work from home. I love midday DIs on my lunch break, I love falling asleep to DIs, and I love them before getting out of bed. But tbh, if I feel I need one, I'll do them while driving, on walks, or in the shower with a Bluetooth speaker. I'll do them anywhere I get a chance.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle: @lola_delrey
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: I heard something recently that we are taught such "masculine" ways of doing things- order, process, rigor, etc. Maybe it's because unblocking my feminine and Kundalini energy has been on my list, but letting out the creative feminine and doing this your way with no expectations and no right or wrong is so helpful. This is not that serious, and if you treat it like a way to indulge and free yourself and truly just be safe in yourself, it's so powerful. there IS NO right or wrong way to experience this work- if something isn't clicking, just follow what your heart wants you to do.
