Self Discoveries Lead to My Gallery Show
On day 3 of joining the Pathway during the Shadow/ Inner Child DRE, I discovered I felt abandoned by my Dad. I always understand why he had to move out because my parents fought really ugly. I never fully took into account my impact. I’m really working through the inner child workshop, like taking each DI daily for 5 or 6 days in a row. I’m uncovering so many memories I forgot, both wonderful and that need reprogramming... there’s a lot there.
In my last autonomy DI, I was walking around my toddler age home like it was a lucid dream and recalling a thing that happened all over it. It was pretty intense and I can now see where I need to focus for healing. Oprah is my expander for pretty much everything and my magnetic Mom. Maybe that’s cheesy, but she’s from the south too and lived in Nashville where I’m from. She was passed between caretakers too, not having a safe space. And now she’s huge and so tapped into her heart! But I also have a half dozen artists and art non-profit directors from my community and through them that I have hooked into.
I turned down every ex that showed up this summer, all 4 of them. One even came back from a 3 day fling in Venice in 2005! I’m shocked he found me. The biggest test was the guy I totally loved and compromised what I wanted for. I told him “I want what’s best for you, but I really want what’s best for me and that’s not you. Maybe in a few years we can be friends, but not now.” It was great!
I just manifested my second Chelsea gallery group show since September! The last week of my first Chelsea group show in about a decade was in September and I just thought to myself how nice it would be to be in another one before the end of the year, I thought 2 even! Then I forgot about it. I’m a non-specific and I didn’t even make a list per se, but I did put it in my desire journaling that I add to daily. (I add 3/ ay from tiny things to big things in an email draft.) And voila, 10/31 I have an invite for an ornaments show, which like the summer show will be the works of a bunch of lovely artists I admire hung together for a month. And funny thing, the gallerist who asked me just posted two days ago about a West Elm collab that I was also interested to do one day. So two days later she invites me for my first show with them!
I’m reminded that surrender is key. I had totally forgotten about the show I wanted from September. It was such a light wanting, I think I mused on it just once or twice in one day and then I also had moments of being happy about the show I was in and thoroughly enjoying myself at the closing party. That’s all it took! Oh and this work relatively regularly! I’m also in a second show in December in Miami with Coral Projects’ first ecological show working with and in nature! I’m building my trust muscles and strategy for the big show! So I’m thrilled! ✨😊😊😊✨
