Finding A New Space With Ease
Name: Autumn Sarsycki
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?:
-New space/home
-In Colorado or California (preference was Denver, Colorado)
-$500 monthly rent /month to month
-Spacious/ natural lighting
-Clean, friendly, independent female roommates
-New/updated appliances
-In-unit washer + dryer
-Near nature/scenery
-Safe neighborhood with local coffee shops nearby
-Outdoor patio + big backyard
-Most furniture included
I had many other things on my manifestation list that I've manifested since becoming a pathway member. Those include:
-Beats headphone (gifted to me)
-Podcast mic (gifted to me)
-Jewelry
-Texas Instrument (needed for school + got one for free)
-Four brand new car tires
-A plane ticket to San Diego
-Unexpected $ (probably close to $3000)
-Expansive partners + more!
The home took the longest and tested me the most!
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I've done every workshop except for Unblocked Love + some twice, listened to every supported + podcast episode, and have done every DI multiple times. I do this work almost every day.
What expanders did you find?: A few friends that moved across the country. My sister moved across the country multiple times on a tight budget. Lacy + her $300 echo park apartment.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: I was living with my dad at the time, and the living situation was not ideal. I had lived on my own for a year, + I wasn't able to afford it, so I moved back in with my dad. He is a recovering alcoholic with narcissistic tendencies. When I lived with him, there were many tests I had to face. I will name just a few, though every day felt like a test.
Anyone that has narcissistic parents knows how the dynamic is. It's very hard to speak your truth and be heard, especially if you are seen to be attacking/ignoring your parents. One day, I got a long text from my dad while I was out with a friend. This text basically was questioning why I lived with him instead of with my mom or grandmother. My dad knew why I didn't want to live with them + yet he was suggesting that I put myself in an uncomfortable/toxic environment because I wasn't spending much time with him.
I will not go into details, but I had plenty of reasons to choose this disease living with my dad versus retraumatizing myself daily in the alternative. In the past, I was very confrontational with my dad, which only fed his narcissistic supply. In this situation, I used "I statements" and explained why living with him felt better for me, though I didn't plan to stay for long. I didn't attack him, shame/guilt, or blame him. However, I did stand up for myself + explain that this is what my healing journey looks like; space + room to process on my terms.
There was another incident in which he got me a dry erase board so I could notify him when I was recording a podcast or client's natal chart. Again, in a reaction to my solitude, he took the dry erase board + wrote a countdown for the number of days until I was to move out. At this moment, I decided not to exchange harsh words like I have before but rather take the dry erase board off of the door to my room. I was not going to feed his anger. There were many other instances like this that I chose to take the higher road and stand up for myself, yet still show respect to my father.
I was also tested when I was fired from my long term job. I worked as a medical assistant in a psychiatry office for four years. At first, I was inspired by my work and felt a real desire to help. As time went on, my spiritual practice deepened, and traditional psychology started to feel a bit icky. I was let go from my job in August, and I felt it coming. I also knew I would be tested because I have left jobs on bad terms before. I knew this time; I had to take responsibility for my actions leading to my termination (tardiness) and thank my employers for the opportunity.
I made a lot of genuine connections while working at that job, + I am extremely grateful for the experience of working there. I know the knowledge I gained working there will carry through. When I was let go, I did so with grace. I hugged my managers goodbye, thanked them, and left without a bad taste in my mouth.
Another test occurred when I had to chat with a few people before getting to my place. I originally thought that I was looking for a place between $600-800, even though it was out of my budget. I had to have patience that the perfect place for me would come through.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: Yes, I did for about two months. I was let go at the end of August, and I decided then that I would move to Denver whenever the opportunity was right. I got a ping one day to see if there were any Denver housing groups. I applied to about six, and then once I was approved, I put what I was looking for on all of the pages. I was upfront about everything in my ad + went in with the thought of "I only want to connect with people aligned." I chatted with many people until eventually, I got a message from my new roommate.
She said they had been looking for someone who matched their energy, + they felt I would fit. She also said the rent was only $500! I put 600-800 in my ad, but 500 on my manifestation list. A week or so later (in October), I met them over facetime, saw the place, took a few days to sit with it (even though I knew it was a yes), + let them know I'd be ready within a month. I moved within a month, and it was very easy, which is something I asked for: if it's meant to be, please let it be easy.
How did your manifestation come through?: Once I made the decision, everything was very easeful and flowed. I received a message from my new roommate expressing interest in my Facebook ad.
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What is your cultural upbringing and background?: I am 27 years old, mixed American(half black + half white), she/her. My mom and dad were never married or in a serious relationship + had me at 16. I've had to overcome personal + generational trauma along this journey. I grew up on section 8 housing + food stamps with an alcoholic mother.
