Facing Shadow & $20k in Savings
Name: Deanna Imfeld
Where do you reside?: Upstate New York
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: I was raised in a very small town in Upstate NY. It was in the country so I stayed home most of the time. I've been working since I was 13 and was the first to go to college and also leave the country. I am a Cancer Sun Aries Moon, and a Scorpio Rising.
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?:
-Art Career; selling my art, prints and clothing with my art; collaborations; and a podcast
-Deeper connection to my rituals
-Savings of 20K
-A Keyboard piano
-An apartment
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I'm back again! I wrote in a different testimonial but wanted to focus on abundance. I have been doing this work for a year and a half. In April, I left my toxic marketing job when Covid was starting to close everything, left my apartment in Los Angeles, and road-tripped back to NY to stay with my parents for this past year. I started with Unblocked Inner Child, then got reallllly acquainted with my shadow in Unblocked Money and Unblocked Love.
Some blocks that came up for me this past year were this fear that if I don't have a 9-5, then I have no value and will have no money coming in, that I cannot be an artist since my degree is in marketing, and that I am going to end up stuck in my parent's house. The key theme for me that I have worked through is this idea of safety. I had left my home when I was 19, after a traumatic incident, and moved to Australia, then Los Angeles. In those six years, I moved around a TON, never fully feeling like I could find my footing or belong anywhere. So safety has always been a major shadow for me, that I am incapable of having security or safety.
What expanders did you find?I am looking to be an artist full time, travel often, and be paid for my mind and creativity. I met many expanders this year in my personal life, but here are some that are more well known! My expanders are:
Jimena Reno
Timothy Goodman
Ashley Longshore
Pea the Faery
Cami Arboles
Melissa Villasenor
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: A lot of tests happened in my childhood home since this is the longest I've been back in 6+ years. There were a lot of tears shed over feeling like I was hiding pieces of myself and not feeling accepted. I view my sexuality as fluid, which I haven't talked about with my family, and I also have tattoos (which my mother is VERY against), along with many views that are different from my family's. I actually had "being closer to family" on my list and noticed that my mom would tell me that I don't see family enough or that it hurts her that I don't hang out with my grandma etc. So I took my mom shopping one day, and we walked by a man with rose tattoos on his leg.
My mom told me she thought they were pretty, so I made a leap of faith and told her about mine, and she put her hand on my leg and just went "honey, I love you." So that is a win in my book! Throughout the year, I have also been applying to places out of fear, making it to the last stage of interviews and ghosting. This also occurred if I asked someone on a date, or I would cancel a date if I was asked out. Salwa offered me the beautiful insight that I am going towards the dead to avoid this fear of safety :) With the other big test, I got a business license, something I was putting off, and began offering prints of my art. It feels like crickets to ask me if I would do this with or without external validation.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I was getting unemployment for a bit, and then the government said they were adding an extra amount weekly, then suddenly nothing came in. It got to the point that there were 29 weeks unpaid. I would also say I was in one for an apartment for a long time. I was holding this feeling that I wanted to get out, wanted to move. And a clear download came in saying, if you hold this energy, that is all you will continue to feel, so create the space you want right where you are.
I also got the Unblocked Flower Remedy from the first launch. That really helped me open up in my shadow and appreciate the magic dark I was in. Good friends and strangers would tell me that I seemed so comfortable and confident in my skin, and I noticed a huge shift in my body image while taking it. A lot of triggers that kept coming up for me began to dissolve, and I felt this huge sense of hope. Someone I went to highschool with, who is now in the art industry, reached out to me while I was on this remedy, and wanted to help me get signed by a gallery.
How did your manifestation come through?: So oddly enough, when I opened up to my mom, 16 of the 29 weeks came through. I also had a huge ping to invest in stocks at the beginning of the year, and it just so happened when Gamestop happened. I bought some stock of Gamestop and AMC and then watched my soul be crushed because the price plummeted. My body said to hold it, and a month later, I ended up making a 1500 profit from it!
Then I went down to NYC to meet with the person I knew from high school that was in the art industry. She showed me around art galleries, and I was so triggered the whole trip. It was not fun for me. And the art galleries I went to made me feel so heavy, which made me realize, I actually didn't want my art in galleries. I was feeling a bit disappointed, and when I woke up the next morning, the rest of the 29 weeks came in. Whenever money comes in, I invest in something that I know will bring me joy, so I scheduled a session with Salwa. Then right before my session, I got a notification that another 29 weeks had been added to my claim balance.
With that, I reached my 20K savings goal and will be receiving even more than I thought. I had a lot of guilt around this money coming in since it wasn't coming through my art career, but I had written down that I do not support money. Money supports me. That I do not need to worry about how money comes to me, just that it comes to support me living in my authentic self.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: 6 months! Still waiting for the apartment and move, though :D
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: I had been a worker horse all of quarantine, but my body told me to rest this past month, and that was when all this money came in.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle:: @talularoseart
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: Something that really helped me was an excel sheet of all my expanders and also my shadow traits or traits I wanted to embody. As an artist, I would paint or write a story based on the manifestation I wanted to call in. I have a small painting of the apartment I am manifesting hanging up above my bed. I've also written poetry for these manifestations. Each month, I choose a word for an intention. For example, February was vulnerability. So I asked people out, I put out a story about a traumatic experience that happened to me and how that is shown through my art.
WORKSHOPS
Shadow / Inner Child / Love / Money
