Manifesting My List Within A Week
Name: Denise Davis
Where do you reside?: London
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: I was born and raised in South Africa
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?: To rebuild me & my business, work on having self-worth as I had none, and keep myself very small all my life.
also, the following:
-Website
-Personal Photoshoot for my new business website
-Makeup artist
-Location
-Photographer
-Nails
-And my biggest manifestation on the list was a stylist
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I've done every workshop on the pathway, most of them more than once. ROCK BOTTOM was like my bible and my daily road map for months. I listen to the videos over and over.
-DI's
-Triggers
-Tests
-Deservingness
-Atarah's DI's
Blocks:
My subconscious believes / blocks were:
-To trust others more than I trusted myself. I felt like I wasn't allowed to make choices as it gets me hurt or bad things happen.
-That I was unworthy, and if I can find someone that would choose me, THEN I'd be worthy.
-That I believed I was less than and that it was my role to be the subservient self-sacrifice.
-Abuse being used was normalized to me as a child therefore I accepted allowed and dismissed bad behavior towards me like it was acceptable.
-I played it small, kept myself hidden to keep myself safe.
-I avoid relationships as I subconsciously believe it's either related to self or to others. They can't co-exist, so there was no self when I was involved with another.
-There is so much more I unblocked my whole childhood patterns and how all the beliefs were formed around the events that happened to me as a child (I have a memory of some, others are too traumatic, and I can't remember)
What expanders did you find?: I found expanders for almost every area in my life as I was in such a bad place.
Someone that had Disorganised attachment and worked through it = expander is Atarah
Grace expander = MacKenzie Scott
Beautiful older woman = stylist influencers I follow on Instagram
Elle Macpherson
Monet mazur
Christy turlington
Kate Moss
Nose expander = Elle macpherson
Big age gap expanders = Olivia Wild & Harry Styles
Keanu Reeves & Alexandra Grant
Wolverine's wife in real life
Emanuel Macron & Bridget Macron
Jimmy Fallon's wife
Classy beautiful woman expander = Chelsy Davy
Cressida Bonas
Kate Middleton
Older women achieving/building a Successful business in their late 30's
Stylist Flyer (real life )
Sophie make up artist / my neighbor ( real life )
Lauren Smy ( my client )
Single mom meeting a great guy
Story ( my friend )
Melissa ( a mom at school)
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: All my big fears were around love. All my tests always come in the form of old partners/flings that came back. It was like dominoes; one came back, and the rest followed 3 in a week. All testing if I'll settle for the same old pattern of having me but not committing. I passed them all. It wasn't easy. Did it hurt? Yes! Did it trigger my old pattern of thought? Yes. Despite this, I recognized it, worked through it, felt all my pain, and chose better.
All my tests always come in LOVE, as I was in a place 11 years ago where I had absolutely nothing on the street with a six-month-old baby; after walking out of an abusive marriage. I worked hard to create a home, a business and raised my son, got a driver's license etc. I do not fear having little money as I've been there before, and I have no debt. I do well for myself, but because of a lack of deservingness, I've never tried to build my business or work on myself in order to earn more money. I had other small tests where people tried to take advantage of me in other ways in my personal life, but I felt my boundaries.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I'm not sure. I had a pretty rough rock bottom, and like Lacey says in the workshop, the waves just kept crashing on me! A lot of the time, I felt like I was in the tornado in the wizard of oz, and it just wasn't stopping, but I followed rock bottom and cleared space and did the work and trusted.
How did your manifestation come through?: I had a ping to do a website & my client, who is a web designer, quoted me a very good rate! Once that was planned, I had a ping to do press shots to rebrand my business. Knowing photoshoots cost a lot, I trusted the universe. I posted on a local FB site for photographer recommendations and out of nowhere had one that offered to do it for free. After that, I needed a makeup artist, which was also recommended to me. She's my neighbor across the street and just had a new studio built so that sorted location & makeup, and she was happy to collaborate to build content.
Lashes were given to me by my waxing girl who started her own business, and the best is the stylist who is a client's son. I met my client by chance on a day I had an hour free and posted on the local FB group if anyone needed a haircut as I had a free slot. This was after lockdown. Then I found a local nails lady also doing it as a collaboration. She told me about her son, and I had a ping to message her and asked if he would be interested, and he was more than excited to be part of it! Also, I was having a hard time getting an outfit as I have always played it small. Shopping stressed me out, so I decided to ask the universe and delegate it to someone that loves it, and so when I got the ping, I could see how it all fitted together: the free slot, meeting his mom, etc.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: Less than a week from writing down the list I wanted to manifest re the Photoshoot & website
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: Workshops daily, listening to videos, supported is always playing or Expanded. I re-listen to episodes all the time. I try DI 3 times a week. My friend Diana and I talk through our triggers,blocks and do some workshops together.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle:: denisedavishair
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.:
There is so much more detail, but I hope that I made sense explaining this. English is my second language x
On a side note, I live in London, and I have raised my kid alone since he was six months old. I have no family here; it's him and me. Doing the work and unblocking, working through triggers, seeing patterns is changing my life. I love TBM, and I am so grateful that I came across it. Thank you
And thank you so much for the opportunity to share
Love
Denise
