Standing In Our Worth Led to an Aligned Apartment
Name: Louise Pajor
Where do you reside?: Hudson Valley, New York
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: First-Generation Polish American, Mostly Slavic in Ancestry
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?: Driver's License, Private Massage Therapy Practice with my partner, a Jeep, a Cabin in the Woods
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: The recommended formula to start, How to Manifest, then Unblocked Inner Child, then Unblocked Shadow, then Unblocked Money, and then making it my own, embodying the practice, and checking back in to work consistently.
What expanders did you find?: I was able to be expanded by the people that were already in my life. I was able to reframe and work on my jealousy and turn it into mudita, or the Buddhist practice of sympathetic joy for the happiness of another. I was able to meet new people and see them as fragment expanders in different areas of their lives.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: Tests were extensive and brutal. It started with losing my job due to the pandemic, debating on living with family, living with my partner's family, not being able to find a place to live, sleeping on the floor for too long, the gym's being closed for so long, leaving New York City abruptly, and never returning. My partner and I kept failing apartment hunting for a long time. Nothing seemed right about it. I was ready to jump on anything for a while, as long as it was not with family. However, over time I learned patience. I learned grace. I learned to develop trust and that these opportunities were not working out for a reason.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: There was a moment in Spring-Summer 2021 when my partner and I agreed we were going to move closer to our private massage therapy practice since our commute was a 50-minute drive one way. When we both agreed to start looking, we were getting turned down by everyone. Even the worst-looking horrible run-down places had 50 applicants. Everyone wanted a piece of the Hudson Valley when we were actively searching.
How did your manifestation come through?: This is not the story of "we never gave up our search" because we did. I started saying no. I would search for apartments every morning and say no. They were not what we wanted. They were not what we deserved. Previous applications that we filled out weeks before started calling back, and we declined. We had different weekend gigs that required a two-day commitment during this time.
Our lovely training partner, Molly, allowed us to stay at her gorgeously renovated Cabin that was on her outstanding property. We had a good time at the event but an even better time bonding with Molly and her husband in the morning over coffee. The next day when we returned to my partner's childhood home, where we had been living throughout the pandemic, I got a text from Molly offering us to rent the Cabin.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: Driver's License & Jeep - a few months collectively, Private LMT Practice with my partner about nine months, Cabin in the Woods about a year and a half.
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: If not daily, weekly. However, the mindset of the work was always on my mind. The terminology and "aha" moments were constant.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: Supported became my lifeline. I strongly gravitate towards indexes, bullet points, and categorized sources of information. It became an encyclopedia for manifestation for me. If I feel confused or frustrated in a workshop, there is always an answer for me in a supported episode. I love cleaning and listening to Supported, mostly because I have a hard time staying still for too long.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle: @slavstrong
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: I think the notion of "not bypassing valid emotions" that TBM stresses really resonated with me. I believe that the topic of mental illness (and I mean severe mental illness, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, etc.) should be publicly discussed, especially since many pathway members probably feel like they struggle with these issues in silence. As someone living with bipolar 1 and a history of psychosis, I have to be very careful while navigating the work. I have to have time limits on certain workshops, have extreme realistic accountability with my therapist, and constantly work the courage in my professional life to be open and informative about my disorder. I believe that valid and severe mental illnesses often (unintentionally) get bypassed and categorized under the comfortable label of "depression and anxiety." I believe in advocacy and being a voice for others that rebuilding from severe mental distress is possible, especially by utilizing the work.
