A $600k Deal, A Beach House, & My Entire List

Name: Emma Frazer

Where do you reside?: Adelaide, Australia (wine country!)

What is your cultural upbringing and background?: Anglo-Australian. Raised in a fairly quintessential 'coastal country town' in Australia but with a unique twist; the most millionaires per capita in Aust due to the fishing industry (unfortunately not my family!). A big catholic family - I'm one of 27 grandkids. It's no secret that most white Australians' ancestry has some sort of convict ties. I recently learned of my Nan's Jewish heritage. It all resonates. I'm a true Sagittarius. Traveler, freedom seeker, and a bit too candid for some folks

Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes

What was on your manifestation list?: I first cast my list at the End of 2019. I had six things:

1. Win 1 - 3 new sustained client projects on my own terms / my preferred consulting rates(equated to c$150K PA). AKA the freedom to live life on my own terms, re-establish my confidence/ worth and alleviate financial strain/ worries

2. Build my Company website for under $1500. Needed to include Graphic design, photography, copy etc. So I can ground and grow the visibility of my business

3. A new European car less than three years old, low KM, less than $20K

4. A revamped backyard for less than $500 (I heard about a manifestation story whereby someone had done this and was inspired/ confused as to how ;))

5. Self-confidence & worth - I have regular income on my terms that affords me savings + spending, therefore making me at ease/ comfortable within myself. I like, and value money for myself - being poor makes me anxious and not a good version of myself >> I like to spend on myself & be generous to others without worry or return. I like my face - I take care of it, I smile in the mirror regularly, I feel proud of my Work & who I am, and my friends/community/clients love me for it too. I am adventurous/innovative & open-minded, unwilling to settle for mediocrity, creative & sensitive & curious soul.

6. A better/bigger community & friendship - I rid myself of loneliness, I'm more social & have more energy for people who like me/ stretch me/ make me beam and I do them.

Manifestation lists I've continued to call in since this time;

- (Following year) Grow visibility of business - 6 -10 new/sustained clients. $35K a month (Very ambitious during covid!!)

- My house is re-valued at $500K

- Buy a Caravan so I can have a renovation project and have many holidays (freedom code)

- start my own family /have a baby….

- Meet my honey-baby IRL….

- Set and maintain new boundaries with Mum/ Parents so I can feel safe within self

- Be gifted free diamonds (never had/don't own any)

- (following year) Continue to grow visibility + Sustain Growth of business to $600K PA. Introduce pioneering IP to further differentiate and leverage the brand

- Holiday at least monthly (freedom code)

- Overcome feelings of loneliness > aloneness is cool though

- Overcome fear of feeling intimidated by those smarter, more senior, and more experienced than I in business > Incongruent with target client

- Following year (current) - Grow a multi-million $ business - scale clients, team continuity & connection, curate pioneering IP to leverage & scale, activate referral partnerships, unearth new revenue streams, grow visibility, etc

- Aligned village/deeper connections - I give more than I take, I nurture friendships/ my staff / my networks & partnerships (power from the sum of the collective)

- Give me what I need - to be seen & heard, progress over perfection, be generous & mindful, Growth in my feminine & self-respect,

- Pursue creative ventures - design & fund the beach house, have a space to curate and make art/furniture

- Uplevel mindset and abilities to facilitate the growth side of my business & evolve from being a business doer, to a business owner. Includes all the commercial (not operational) side of the business - marketing, sales, BD, commercial reseller agreements & referral partnerships.

What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: How to manifest

Unblocked Inner child

Unblocked Shadow

Unblocked Love

Unblocked Money

The rut

DIs inconsistently week to week but in waves/sprints as I could.

Full Moon DI is my fav!

I've done the last two challenges this year and got loads out of them both - thank you :)

At the start, Inner Child really helped me to see the trauma from my birth, plus I'm pretty sure mum had really bad post-natal and was effectively estranged from her parents and family, so I now know all of this would've been projected onto me even though I don't recall it. When I first joined I'd had a year of rock bottoms and was at a super low point, so I attribute being able to manifest pretty quickly and easily (from the bottom of the belle curve stuff) + what I was trying to call in was material/ tangible so easy to see. As I've continued the Work, what I'm trying to call in is perhaps a little more intangible, so harder to spot/ see the exact point I was able to call in or move past the block.

Specific blocks include;

- My association with money was a mirror of my parents. I had a huge lack of mentality, yet within my authentic code is this thread of freedom and luxury.

- Work hard >> I'm not intelligent.

- Years of loneliness /feeling like an outsider /unsupported stemming from my parents only showing me attention for the 'highlights'.

- I didn't really trust myself/ know what trust felt like in my body. I have been cheated on by more boyfriends than I care to write home about,

- I had no idea what a boundary was until I started TBM!

- I shrink/settle around others a lot - teachers who mark my grades, bosses who pay me/ give me performance feedback, smart people, rich people, talented people - all of which impact my ability and willingness to be seen, visible

- People only like 'Emma Fun-times' - learning to love and embrace my intense, serious, and deep-thinking self in equal measures.

- I'm terrified of growing old alone

What expanders did you find?: - Sophia Amoruso (she seems to get slammed for her views, yet is clearly magnetic and a pro-business woman, vulnerable about her challenges with fertility)

- Samantha Wills (Aussie-New Yorker, entrepreneur & jewelry designer - her book is very expansive! And she's from a coastal Aussie country town too)

- Alexandra Laws (Kundalini teacher, single mum, Entrepreneur who completely reinvented her occupation from Los Angeles elite sports performance coach to Australia Executive performance and wellness expert - she is about to blow up, and I'm so honored to be her friend)

- Michelle Bridges (Aussie Fitness entrepreneur/reality TV and had a baby in her mid-late 40s)

- SIA (a musician who's a single mum to adopted boys)

- Local colleagues close to me who have started businesses from scratch

- I've got a few relationship expanders - friends and acquaintances

What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: Probably the first test was the website build. I was so strung out about the photography as I really didn't want to feature/be seen, but I couldn't think what else a photographer could capture that represented the business (Management consulting). I remember calling an old flatmate who's a stylist and does set props and styling for Vogue Magazine, Interior Design etc, begging her to tell me what I could do. Anything to get out of being seen. I rang another friend who's a Fashion & Jewellery designer to help me select outfits. I went soooo overboard. On the day of the shoot, the photographer was late and forgot her camera, so was in tears, it was 40c/ 104f degrees, so I'm pretty sure my makeup melted off in the first hour. Despite all of this, we ended up having a great day, got so many great images and I now love the website + more importantly regularly get comments/ feedback that they love the site, the aesthetic, and think what the business does is 'cool' (how could management consulting ever be considered cool is beyond me). Can you tell me if I passed?!

In January 2020, I approached another local independent consultancy about subcontracting to them. They offered me a job instead - a good 6 figure salary, an inspiring leader, but I would have to fold my business and give up on my dream of living life on my own terms. I might have been failing, but I didn't want to give up. At the exact same time, I was offered a 2-week consulting gig for a very reputable Company. On the face of it, the job was the better offer, but the consulting gig was absolutely on my terms and all that I was trying to call in. It was a HUGE test because I'd burned through so much of my FUF and was seriously lacking in self-worth - take the bridge job or jump off the cliff for just two weeks work? Interestingly, when I asked the TBM Facebook group if people thought it was a bridge job or test - most said bridge. Well, of course, I ignored that, threw caution out, and took the 2-week consulting gig, which was of course, the right thing to do. It turned into a 15-month client assignment. Four months after that, I won a second client and managed both concurrently - earning me double what I would have earned if I'd taken the bridge job, AND I got to keep my Company.

I haven't passed my test for a relationship yet. I really want to meet someone in real life, but I feel and sense I'm an invisible 40-year-old and can't seem to unlock getting me out of the phase I'm in. When I was younger, I dated rock stars, elite athletes, wealthy fishermen, and fashion designers… the dating pool just seems so beige and small in my current city by comparison. I intuitively know that I need to be the 'rockstar' in my forever relationship, but I've yet to come remotely close to anything that resembles this. I get tempted to jump online at times and see this as not passing the test + I invariably get frustrated, despondent, and give up easily. I've effectively up levelled money so much that I'm even further away from love now than when I first cast my list back in 2019. I think Salwa talked about this in one of her videos. Her love/relationship is so magnetic, and her money manifestations seem even further away. I feel confused about what I want /need in a partner and what kind of relationship I want… so I kinda think I've kicked that can down the street. I do stay in trust and hope for the kismet moment/man, and get on with all the other aspects that are my life for now.

To get real on this topic - Getting on with my life is no joke though. This has been very hard to come to terms with the reality that if I want to have a family, I'm going to have to start on my own/ use IVF science (I'm 41). The Work I've had to do to even consider this as an option hasn't been for the faint-hearted - being a 'poor single mum' is like my worst nightmare on steroids come true. Ultimately I've seen a pattern of encouragement to have a baby solo from friends and colleagues (thanks TBM for helping me learn how to be my own pattern picker). I'm just starting the process of selecting donors as I write this. I share not because I'm entirely ready to admit this to myself. I'm not even sure if it'll work out, but if anyone out there is feeling similar - I'm here for you. I really do need some more expansion of successful hetro single parents from IVF. It's slim pickings, but so far I've found SIA (Aussie American Singer), and my Kundalini teacher Alex (although she's gay). The most common example and narrative is that this is by choice. Hells no, this is not my first choice.

I didn't get a $500 backyard renovation. I do have a fabulous backyard and garden and got it 80% the way I wanted it for under $500 (repainted the fence, full luscious green garden beds, festoon lighting and an outdoor fire, recycled red brick garden bed edging), but the final paving I waited a few years until I was financially abundant again and paid about $4k. It's such a glorious sanctuary and a good lesson in going with the flow, and being patient.

Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: Last year, I had a client renege on a deal. I was annoyed at the time but not nearly as annoyed as my friends and colleagues. I just felt calm, that it wasn't meant to be. I doubled down on my TBM focus and refined my list over and over until it felt super aligned. I'm a specific manifester in Human Design and a Management Consultant, so I can slip into SMART goals rather than casting a manifestation list. Here's my difference:

SMART: I want to manifest a business that generates $1M sales by 2023 with at least 20 clients, a team of 4 consultants, and pioneering innovative IP as our differentiator.

To: I want to manifest a multi-million dollar business - curate pioneering innovative IP, partnerships, and staff to deliver clients projects that leave/result in enduring credibility and visibility for years to come.

The tweak from a 'fixed figure and timeframe' to 'multi-million' seemed brazen, loose, and wild, yet I was hooked and feeling so magnetic at the thought of it all. Yes, it so much grander than I could have ever envisaged for myself, or that I need, yet it deepens my conviction to serve our clients at scale x10 fold, provide better continuity and work experience for my team and I, plus allows me to transition from business operator to business owner (in due course). This is important as it frees me up to live even more in alignment with my authentic code and be an abundant mum.

Shortly after I made this tweak, I got a call from a headhunter I've known for c. ten years. I love James, and I'd literally do anything for him, but the client wanted a standalone contractor, which we don't offer. I gave him an alternative option to pitch and sent info on our approach. I didn't think they'd bite, but the client loved us - a global Defence contractor and wanted to know the commercial arrangement I'd recommend. I said yes on the phone and literally had no clue what the question actually meant. I spent 2 days calling everyone I could possibly think of to figure out what she meant. I had the worst case of imposter syndrome as I contemplated how the hell I was going to pull off a deal that literally felt like something out of the bible - David V Goliath. The tweak I made about the business forecast for sure landed me the biggest deal I'd ever won (We made more money in the first month than what I did in the first year of trading just four years prior), and the IP we used for the client was totally pioneering and the missing piece they needed, and I was able to grow my team just from this one client.

How did your manifestation come through?: I've had so many, especially when I first started out, and I attribute this to being in a year rock bottom prior, + the things I cast on my list were tangible/material things. As time has progressed since starting in 2019, I'm trying to manifest less tangible or really big audacious things that I think inherently take more time.

The first BIG thing I called in was the car. When the pandemic kicked off, I decided to sell my car. I was planning to upgrade as I wanted to buy a caravan and fulfill my travel itch whilst international borders were closed. We were all locked in our homes, and the only place I could go was the beach and supermarket - both within walking distance. I started researching cars and narrowed it to a couple of European SUVs I liked. I would have been happy with a nearly new/ good second-hand car to get the make/model I liked. Then I saw my friend Georgie's car, which I loved. A VW Tiguan. They have the hugest range, but I really wanted the glass sunroof. They were priced at $40K, which is double my budget. After speaking to my accountant, and by the time I cashed in my old car and purchased through the business with tax deductions, I managed a brand NEW car for $20k. I still don't even know how that's possible, but it's true.

The most magical thing I've called in was increasing the valuation of my house to $500K. During the Christmas prior to the pandemic (end of 2019?), my overhead kitchen cabinets fell off the wall in the middle of the night. It shattered every single glass, cup, bowl, plate, etc I owned. Including one of a kind, handmade, never to be replaced dinner set I'd lugged back from Japan years earlier. It damaged the sink, and the floorboards. The cupboards were completely ruined - lying on the floor. I thought we were being robbed in the middle of the night. I was so stunned I couldn't even cry. The following day I couldn't get through to insurance, I couldn't figure out what to do, and on top of it, I had Airbnb guests staying for two weeks - arriving in 48 hours. I needed the money to fund my summer holiday, so I couldn't cancel their stay. 

There was a mad dash and adrenalin to clean up, buy new glassware and crockery, patch & paint the wall. I left a bottle of champagne for the guests hoping they wouldn't complain about the half state of the kitchen. Fortunately, they loved their stay, and paid in full (peak holiday rate), so I got my free holiday which was rad! I still needed to deal with insurance when I returned from the holidays. I was cheeky and asked a builder friend to give me an inflated quote. Around $3K. The insurer wouldn't accept it and insist on sending their own builders to inspect. I was freaking out. The building inspector noted the dented sink and scratched floorboards to also be fixed (noting I live in a 100-year-old character home, so the floorboards are fairly scratched throughout) and added it to the estimate. 

As the floors in the kitchen needed to be sanded, they had to remove the cupboards to get underneath, + the floorboards are continuous throughout the house, meaning there is no end point and they would have to re-do the whole house. Fast forward six months, the whole thing cost the insurer about $37K to which I chipped in an additional $5k so I could engage an architect to design me a new kitchen instead of reinstalling the old one. Effectively I got a whole kitchen renovation and new floorboards I'd wanted to do for free, AND it massively increased the valuation of my house. Magic.

I wanted to manifest free diamonds. So many of my friends are married and sporting gorgeous rocks, and as I don't see this being on the horizon for me anytime soon I had this feeling of - just because I'm single doesn't mean I can't have diamonds. I'm past the age of fashion jewelry. It was pretty flippant of me to put it on the list but true to form, I wrote it down and kinda forgot about it. 2 months later was my 40th. My parents gifted me my Nan's rings for my birthday - a gorgeous aqua marine surrounded by diamonds. I was so overcome as my family does not give lavish gifts. It's so gorgeous, I totally love it. I remember her wearing her rings when I was young, and it brings me so much joy and comfort to wear them. I feel closer to my Nan, even though it's been 20 years since she passed. Tick!

One thing that wasn't originally on my list, but that I've dreamed about was having a beach house. I grew up going to my friend's shacks every summer holiday, and my ultimate getaway is renting an airbnb at the beach with friends. I'd bought the caravan as my 'interim mobile holiday home' - I'm no camper, but I needed to fulfill my need for adventure, freedom, and new experiences. Very serendipitously, I was looking for blocks of land for sale for a friend when I came across this area only an hour from home that had super cheap blocks of land right on the coast. I'd never heard of the place, but I know the surrounding areas - theres a beach 10 mins drive that resembles something out of the south of France and is gorgeous. 

The land wasn't suitable for my friend, but I was just so shocked at the price (like, my car cost more). I told my Dad one day, and he thought it'd be a good idea to drive down to look at it. We were in the middle of the pandemic. I wasn't spending money on my usual overseas holidays or fashion and had racked up a tonne of savings. I rang the agent on Monday to see if it was real and made an offer to buy it on the spot. It's a huge sloping block with gorgeous views of an escarpment and a small ocean view. I bought it purely for investment reasons >> my money wasn't going to get me rich sitting in the bank on 1% interest, but within nine months the prices skyrocketed, and the valuation tripled. The price increase has given me the confidence to consider building on the land. I've researched builders and mid-way through designing a beach house. I guess the universe didn't give a shit whether or not it was written down in my journal. I love the process of creating, designing and renovating - it brings me a lot of joy and a welcome distraction from being all consumed by Work. It's a very ambitious project, and I don't have a timeframe, but one day in the near future I'll be kicking back on the deck of my very own beach house. Wowee!!

In terms of my business, I only ever set out to earn the same as what I was familiar with earning years prior, but in a more expensive city, I was living in. This equated to around $150K - $200k. I was successful here so the following year, I set out to make $35K months. Again, I came pretty close. The following year I set out to try for $600K. I'd learned so much about running a business by this stage, so it felt like a ridiculous thing to put on my list as clearly it required a different mindset and approach. I'd had a client renege on a deal during this year, so of course, I completely wrote off the possibility of calling in this sum of money until we won our global Defense client and, by a mile the biggest deal I've ever had to negotiate and deliver, put me right back on track to manifest pretty close to $600K. 

It's only by looking at this progress over a number of years, riding waves of needing to delve into FUFs, digging super deep to learn new skills, stretch my thinking, and rewiring new brain pathways that I can even contemplate the thought of running a multi-million dollar company. I honestly don't care if I don't get there, but it's really helped my business acumen and, more importantly, strengthened my trust muscle, self-worth, and confidence to keep going. I owe TBM a debt of gratitude for this because in the past, I think I would have hit rock bottom and given up long ago.

How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: Around three weeks. For context, 2019 was rock bottom year - a falling out with mum, heartbroken from an on/off love of 20 years, and my business was a failure - I hadn't earned a dollar in 5 months burning through FUF. Scared, spiraling, dog paddling, desperate. I started TBM in November 2019 when I learned I couldn't get to see my therapist until the following February. I thought I wouldn't survive that long and was desperately reaching for anything/ something to 'fix' me. In that same month from starting, I finally won a new client at my exact price and offers. Despite it being a god-awful year of hit after hit, I'd set a boundary with myself that if my business didn't turn around by March 2020 that, I would fold the business and return to Sydney to head back to corporate employment. I picked up a second client in early 2020 after a huge test that really set the wheels in motion for me, but had I not landed this first smaller gig so quickly after starting TBM my life would be very different now.

How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: Honestly, on reflection, what I tried to call in early on was very tactile and in part, material. (You can see how my list has evolved over time to include fewer material things). It didn't feel easy at the time, but relatively speaking, I was pretty magnetic in calling in the car, the diamonds, the caravan, and the website. Setting boundaries with mum and what I would/wouldn't do for money at Work was truly leveling my life, so maintaining them made me feel safe and good within myself. During this time, I was doing all the workshops - Unblocked Love, Unblocked Money, Unblocked Shadow, Unblocked Inner Child, the rut. I've always loved doing the monthly full moon DIs, but for the longest time, I was pretty hopeless at consistently doing DIs. 

I've definitely fallen off the wagon a few times, giving myself breaks of upwards of 4+ months… invariably, the universe will give me a knock or tickle… reminding me to get back into alignment, which includes doing the Work with some level of consistency. I really love the podcast and garner loads of inspiration and motivation from it which helps me stay the course. In the last year, my manifestations have been more energetic and humanistic, and to me, these seem harder to see and pinpoint to them 'coming through' at a clear-cut time and place…. It's mostly with hindsight that I can see the Growth, alignment, and worthiness within myself which feels pretty fabulous. Re-reading my old journals to write this application has me jazzed! Getting clear on my Authentic Code didn't come straight away (year 2 of TBM) but has given me so much peace, confidence, safety, & grounding. 

If I could surmise my testimony for TBM, it would be to express my deep utter gratitude for helping find my purpose in life. It has been the biggest gift. For context, I think I spent at least 5 - 10 years perplexed by what my purpose in life was. I spent years frustrated and a bit rudderless in life without a clear purpose and spent countless ways of trying to find it. Constantly searching, wondering, and occasionally spinning out at how hard it was to uncover. At the time I uncovered my code, I remember raving to my colleagues at the time! Creative Curator, Luxury, Freedom seeker, Human Impact - now tie into my manifestations (I loved Heather Whittakers video on how to do this) and journaling.

How do you incorporate this Work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I'm much more comfortable being visible - it's fun to look back at how much ego and shadow I needed to overcome to get photography done… Yet the same images are used on the site, branding, socials, and proposals are REGULARLY commented as being fabulous and unique. I beam with pride when I get these compliments now.

I'm abundant in money and career - I've totally reprogrammed my old scarcity mentality. My Human Design has abundance all throughout my chart. I can't believe how much I've unlevelled here when I finally leaned into my most aligned self. Turbocharged.

TBM uses the term jumping off cliffs. I'd forgotten that I've had a long-held belief and evidence that I leapfrog at various stages in my life, so this is one and the same for me. I can pinpoint when I'm most magnetic aligned to those leapfrog decisions and points in my life. I now keep a list of all those times in my life to expand myself. Refine-refine-refine that list. I often start out intellectually, but until I really feel into it, it doesn't happen (the big stuff anyway). Heather's tip of aligning it to your authentic code really works for me too.

I journal a lot. I re-write my Authentic code, my expander list, and my manifestation list at the start of every new book. I find that sometimes I need to freestyle pre/post the DI questions to really get cut through. I've started to incorporate gratitude journal entries too. I listened to this great Aussie podcast 'the Imperfects.' In one episode, they discuss how the human brain is hard-wired to be in the negative and that we're all on a range from -5 to +5. An average person sits around -2. Someone with depression may be -5. If you can get to 0 (neutral), then you're a pretty magic human. By keeping a gratitude journal, I'm slowly training my brain to see the positives, the joy, the progress, and the self-worth that is my life and its surroundings.

I've found a tone of blocks with the new DIs in the recent manifest challenge. I'd definitely plateaued after doing countless DIs and workshops over and over with minimal shifts just prior to the challenge so I've got a renewed spark of enthusiasm and deeper sense of the Work just now.

I've been really focused on searching out my patterns in the last six months - this was such great advice from Lacy and the team. At the end of the recent challenge, I did a summary section and was blown away by what patterns I could see in my mindset. I found some gold in the wrap-up I created for myself so I'd recommend this to others too.

I really love the full moon DI. Even when I fall off the wagon the two things I'm religious with are the podcasts + Full moon DI. Turbochargers my manifestations coming through for sure.

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