Purpose

Q: What are the energetics behind the fear of being beautiful? I find myself playing small and not wanting to fully embrace my femininity and beauty.

A: You need to do Shadow work around what you picked up about being beautiful - other’s jealousy or insecurity putting you down - integrate and own it. What's usually going on here is that from a young age you wanted to play small because you threatened people with your beauty. Whether it was in school, growing up, friends, you were so beautiful that they were jealous of you and you just wanted to be loved and liked so you tried to shrink and hide your beauty so it didn’t push away what all humans desire-  to be loved for exactly who they authentically are. If that's what's going on you need to do all the shadow work and inner child work around that. The second part can be that you grew up with a deeply insecure mother, deeply insecure sisters that modeled back to you to not be fully in your power. Therefore, you took on the identity of, “I have to not be seen”. Even in that case what's going to be very helpful for you will be Shadow and Inner Child. The more we can embrace what we are authentically and pump up the power around it, the better.  The more you can own it through shadow and do all the reparenting around the people who didn't accept you, then the more you can take all your power back and own it so beautifully, nobody will question it and everybody will gravitate to you. You will manifest and be so magnetic because the only thing that everybody desires and what truly creates magnetism is being totally whole authentically worthy. All beauty is subjective and unique and everyone is beautiful regardless of the shell you live in. It’s all about the subconscious projection!