Facing Tests Left & Right While Pursuing My Two Passions
Name: Maree Romeo
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?:
-A new job with a company that has more structure, a positive team in a beautiful space.
-To be working on my own business and brand as my previous job was extremely toxic with an overbearing boss who was controlling.
-A more connected relationship with my husband.
-Our house that we are in the process of building.
-To be my most authentic self.
-To work on my blocks to become more whole within myself.
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I started with How to Manifest, Unblocked Inner Child, Unblocked Shadow, Unblocked No, the rut, rock bottom, authentic code, parts of Unblocked Money, and Unblocked Love. I also did the DRE daily. I listened to almost all of the supported episodes and podcasts.
I felt like my old workplace definitely blocked me as well as my husband to a degree. And also myself.
What expanders did you find?:
-Oprah Winfrey
-an interior designer I know personally in Australia who is so inspiring and creative who has her own business and works alone.
-A friend who is a fragment expander who asks for what she wants, and I love her style.
-My sister, who is so creative and is seen on social media and doesn't care what people think.
- My old boss, omg I had so much shadow around her but I think she was an expander in her relationship mainly. I think she may be a narcissist though lol but I realized she triggered me so much that there were elements of her life I wanted
-There's a couple of other Aussie couples in the media who are designers and work together, and they are so connected, and I always hoped to have that with my husband.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: Mostly when I had to sit in my worth and speak up. Which I did start doing, and that triggered other people. I knew I was settling to a degree in terms of money in the job I took, but I had to make the jump to leave my toxic workplace. After losing my new job to Covid, I had many tests, applying for jobs, and nothing coming through.
Being at home with my husband, who became really ill during that time, I asked for what I wanted and was not responding well. He then got diagnosed with a serious heart condition and a possible transplant, this time I was running around like a lunatic with him wanting me by his side, but I had to start setting boundaries as my health started suffering. I found it hard at times as I am a generator, and I need time to think about things.
If I make a rushed decision, it doesn't usually end well. I had tests around money as all our funds were drying up, and I had to go to all of our utility companies and ask for help. I had a job offer come through during this time, again, not the best money, but I had to start working. I'm in the design industry, which is great, and my boss is a huge expander for me.
After I started, she asked me to work on my birthday (which she didn't know). I didn't want to work but due to my situation and having no money, I said yes even though my body was saying no.
The week after the same thing happened last minute, I did speak up this time as they were not considering my time. I said no problem; if you can let me know in advance in future, that would work better for me so I can see what I have going on. After my husband came out of the hospital, we started working on a room under our house to convert it into a studio.
He was exhausted, and was very impatient with me, and always angry.
I had to start saying, don't speak to me like that.
He pushed a lot. I tried very hard not to react but sit in my worth and stay calm. I have since found out that he has been having a 3.5-year affair....
And that was it for me; I left him. In my heart, it's hard to let go of a 20-year relationship, but it goes against everything I believe in, and I know I am worth more. The last four weeks have been testing me nonstop, but like lacy says, stay in your grace, and that's what I am doing.
He continually tests me every day, but I am staying peaceful and graceful. People are asking what has happened, but I am just saying it's not my place to say you need to speak to my husband. This is one of the hardest things I've had to do in my life, but in time I know I will be ok, and if I end up by myself, I know I will be ok because I have me.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: Yeah, when I wanted to leave my old workplace, I applied left, right, and center but nothing was coming through until my job came. I ended up losing that three months after due to Covid. I picked up two days per week but have wanted more work. I wanted to also work in fashion, as it is another passion of mine.
I've applied for many fashion jobs with nothing coming through. I finally went to a store that I wanted to work at so I could buy a shirt and saw two ladies around my age, and I thought fuck it, if they can work here so can I. I went in and asked for a job and was told to come back the following day, the manager interviewed me on the spot, and I got the job.
So now I have picked up more work at my other job and also now my second job. Again the pay isn't great, but I am the happiest I've ever been at work as I am combing my two passions.
How did your manifestation come through?: I went on air tasker and applied for design jobs. I got one client, then another through my website. I've had another through Instagram, and then a friend has asked me as well as a family member. Things are slow with some of them, but it's showing me that it will come. I just need to keep doing the work.
Walking in and asking for a fashion ob and getting it.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle:: escape_withme
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: Australian - Father's side - Irish father with Spanish ancestry and Scottish mother. Mother's side - English father and half Maltese and half English mother.
WORKSHOPS
How to Manifest / Inner Child / Shadow / Money / No / Uplevel / Authentic Code / Love / DREs
