An Apartment, More Clients, & So Much More!
Name: Vanessa Naumann
Where do you reside?: Lisbon, Portugal
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: I'm an Aries sun, Capricorn moon, and Virgo rising and a Projector in HD. I grew up in a small town 1hr south of Berlin, Germany. I grew up with my mom - my parents separated when I was 5. Lack mentality and being satisfied with what you have is the norm. I had to take on responsibility quite early as my parents were too busy trying to handle themselves and couldn't give me the emotional support I would have needed. I started traveling at 18 and have been traveling and living in different countries for the last 12 years.
I had a career in the tech/startup industry for ten years. I was close to burnout when I finally started taking care of myself. From then on, things changed quickly, and I discovered my gifts and purpose. Long story short, after working through my own journey and training in different modalities, I now am a somatic coach, sound therapist, and breathwork teacher - and can use everything I learned along the way in my business. So for all of you out there wondering about getting it right - just follow your intuition. Even if it feels random, it will all make sense eventually.
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?:
starting my own purpose-driven business
an apartment that feels like home
a loving relationship with my family
finding my voice and overcoming self-doubt
financial abundance
collaborations with innovators
finding an aligned community
Releasing an album
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I did them all. Starting with Unblocked Inner Child and Unblocked Shadow, Unblocked Money, Unblocked Love, I revisit them every few months to uncover deeper layers.
My main blocks:
Receiving isn't safe; it's conditioned
Avoidance (feeling overwhelmed to make decisions or speak up based on my needs)
Energetic gifts (fear of being rejected for trusting and embracing them)
Love is conditioned
Money is hard to earn/ to keep
I'm only deserving when I show that I work hard / ashamed when everything is flowing easily.
I also discovered where I was "performing" and "adjusting" myself to fit in.
I lived in the trigger DI, shadow/inner child reinforcing, abundance & deservingness
If you did work with a coach or a few, who did you work with, in what capacity (Q/A service or Session(s)) and how did that contribute to your manifestation process?: I sent in a question when I was super anxious about jumping off the cliff and growing my business. I thought Atarah would answer me, and he did. By the time the answer came through, I had already figured out my steps forward, and I think it was supposed to be like that. I needed to get through this myself - without dog paddling, and I did. Receiving Atarahs message and hearing his voice and advice really gave me an extra scoop of "you've got this." Thank you again. :)
What expanders did you find?: Many fragment expanders in terms of work and being in my power. I found people around me that do similar things and are successful - especially in terms of community/client growth and financial abundance. Obviously, Lacy is a great expander, many people from the process episodes and testimonial library. I also found many people around me in great relationships - which is currently not essential to me but gives me this confirmation and sense of calm that it's possible and coming when I'm ready.
As I love to play music and want to release a sound bath album, I was also looking for expansion around artists that are authentic and follow their natural flow of creating and sharing their art. I also watched some tv shows that helped me expand my deservingness of financial abundance and creative expression.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: Lots and lots. Especially boundary and financial tests. I've been tested a lot around my pricing in business - the work I'd take on, which is all about valuing myself and my time. I had a lot of unexpected bills come to me. I had a lot of conflict with my mother where I needed to find my grace. I was tested in my avoidance and taking charge of my finances.
I think I passed most of the tests, but when things come around again, I realize that I need to dig a little deeper into the work to pull out the root issue for good, especially around avoidance. I now realize by avoiding expressing myself and making difficult decisions; I actually reject myself and my needs. So breaking it down into the little parts of myself that need me to stand in their corner helps me overcome fear and show up for myself to pass tests.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I think I'm in one right now - or I'm just an impatient Aries... but I've jumped off the cliff in January. When my financial buffer finished, I decided not to take a bridge job cause nothing felt aligned, and nothing came to me. So now I'm just 100% focused on making my business work. I'm still waiting for the financial abundance to come through, meaning to fully support myself through my business. This has been my greatest fear and worry, but I'm currently leaning into receiving, learning a lot about money management, and facing all my fears around it - so I'm just trusting that the universe will engage. That's also why I'm finally writing this testimonial - I'm so impatient when it comes to myself. As an Aries sun, I wanted it all yesterday. So I'm also learning to lean into patience and acceptance - remembering all the moments when things did come through for me.
How did your manifestation come through?: I resonated so much with Lacy's story because mine is very similar in terms of upbringing, interests, and creating my own business. She was a major expander for me. When she told the story of getting pings about the blog - I received pings about creating my online program, and that's how I discovered Lacy's work. It was at a time when I felt ready to fully switch careers, and it wasn't obvious to me that I still had some work to do. I had a regression therapist at the time, and we worked through many things, which was great, but I was craving something that would allow me to take full charge of myself - like a BootCamp to prepare me more deeply for the client work I was going to do.
I believe that we can only help others meet themselves where we've met ourselves. When I discovered Lacy's work, I realized I was already doing it and starting to recognize the patterns of what I am doing to "get what I want" or bring things into reality. I knew that things often happened to me magically, and I felt when things would come through for me. When I found Lacy's work, I immediately understood that this is what I was doing, and I was just in awe for a week. I just decided to sign up cause there was a discount on the annual subscription, but then I didn't get it started until my boyfriend, and I suddenly broke up. It was definitely rock bottom and the universe pushed me out to bring me in alignment.
I only listened to a podcast episode, but she said something about creating your list. I had to move out, and I wanted it all as soon as possible. I was looking into apartments the day we broke up, and all I wanted was to feel safe and home. So I wrote a list of what I needed in a place to have that feeling - I repeated the list in my head before sleeping, asking the universe to help me. The next morning at 10am I had an appointment to see a flat and when I walked in it had EVERYTHING I asked for. I couldn't believe it. From that on, I manifested clients, booked out group sessions, collaborations I loved, and lots of mini manifestations - free rides to my sessions, coffee, dinners, so many things.
I manifested bookings from retreats and hotels - I couldn't believe it. I did training in Berlin and manifested a place to stay just for myself with gongs I was allowed to play. I manifested my first online program and new aligned friends. The more I accepted myself, the more I could accept my parents and family, and now when I go home, I can just let them be without getting reactive or massively triggered. I told my mother everything I was insecure about - regarding how she sees me and my creativity and she really came through for me and assured me of her support. That was groundbreaking - I never heard a sorry from her before. I showed her how I need to be loved, and she listened. I also had such an armor up against my family, and when I let it down and just shared about my life without waiting for them to ask, they were happy and interested. Now they ask me more often and support me.
One of the biggest things that came through just by staying in my process, drawing the focus back to myself, and expressing continuously what I have to contribute to the world - and what's coming through for me from spirit - I found my clear voice. There's no more fear. I truly believe in the process and tuning out of everything that doesn't support your growth. It made me so much better at my job. I had a phase when I really needed something from the universe to strengthen my trust muscle and that's when a tax return of 1800€ came through.
Things usually came through when I did the work - then took action in the way that felt aligned - no dog paddling - and then learned back when I knew I did everything I could. And then repeat that again and again.
The biggest breakthroughs I have, when I go home to Berlin for a period of time (Berlin is on my Pluto line - while Lisbon is on my Jupiter line) and there is always an inward time where I hone in on the work, get tested with my family and then come back to Berlin reaping the manifestations.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: I started the work eight months ago. It differs - the small things often come instantly within days or a couple of weeks. My apartment came through within one day. I often don't even realize what has come through until later. That's why it's really good to keep a list of everything that's coming through to train your trust muscle. Part of why I'm writing this testimonial is exactly that. I am sometimes so focused on growth that I don't realize what I already have. So writing it all down here helps me realize that I'm good. I'm still working on the financial abundance piece, but I also know that the more I appreciate every little manifestation and enjoy what I have, I learn deeper into receiving.
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: The first four months, I really dug in daily. I sometimes spent hours working through inner child and shadow, releasing all my emotions, all really staying in the process until I felt free. Then I took some time to unwind from it and did the DIs 3 times a week but kept my daily practice of breathing, moving, and journaling. I follow what feels right.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I follow my intuition. I have a morning practice of breathwork, movement, and journaling, and when I have enough time, I throw in a DI. Otherwise, I do it at night before going to bed. I'm a somatic coach - working with sound therapy, breathwork, and touch - so I experiment a lot with it. When I did Unblocked Inner Child, I felt that the DIs and journaling were great to open up, and I used breathwork to really get it all out of my system. I believe the change is only lasting when we fully embody the learning. That can sometimes take time but having somatic tools at hand certainly helps in the process.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle: instagram.com/vanessa.decodewithsound
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: Thank you for your work. I truly resonate with all of you as people and that's only possible because you show yourselves so honestly and openly. I truly appreciate that. I also wanted to share my feedback on the flower remedy: I loved it, and I was so surprised how many layers it took off for me to feel right through a block to the source.
WORKSHOPS
Shadow / Inner Child / Love / Money
