New Love & My Dream Career
Name: Annie Howard
Where do you reside?: Massachusetts / Los Angeles
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: American, central Massachusetts born + raised; ethnically/ancestral Irish, culturally Catholic
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?: All I've ever wanted is to have a life partner and a screenwriting career. I can now say that I have POWERFULLY manifested both of these things directly from my hard and diligent work through this program.
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: Every and all, of course, with a constant rinse and repeat through Unblocked Inner Child and Unblocked Shadow, but it was Boundaries as part of the Freedom Roadmap this summer that caused the breakthrough and surrender I needed to manifest my partner. Honestly, to manifest my Career, I painstakingly unblocked with IC+S, but it was the practices and concepts of How to Manifest, such as staying focused on the "micro" and really leaning into expanders. I did the work in the expanded roadmap most recently, which has surely brought this career manifestation through.
If you did work with a coach or a few, who did you work with, in what capacity (Q/A service or Session(s)) and how did that contribute to your manifestation process?: November/December 2020, I coached with Atarah and Mar-June 2021 I coached with Heather. Both were AMAZING and coached me through some SERIOUS unblocking. The work with them definitely had a profound impact on my manifestations.
What expanders did you find?: I used LOTS of expanders for various things, but my most important were the following: creatively, I use Mary Higgins Clark + Diablo Cody as writers I relate to because MHC is my precise culture and went to my college and DC because of "outsider" shadow. My shadow and block of "being seen" and integrating that into my authentic code are Dakota Johnson + Drew Barrymore. My shadow around being "scary/bitch/diva/conceded" and integrating "confidence" was Naomi Campbell. My relationship expander was Andy + April on Parks + Recreation (played by Aubrey Plaza + Chris Platt).
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: In partnership, I manifested a test/expander relationship, which ended in April 21. I then went out with about 4-6 men. Only one got a second date, and up-leveled FAST. I got to a place where I had walked out of a restaurant after waiting for 15 minutes for a first date. I passed him as I left but still decided to leave. I would never wait 15 minutes for a man again, and for me, METAPHORICALLY that was just about not making excuses for bad behavior. It started THAT small. I was done. I would rather be single for the rest of my life than ever do that to myself.
I will make art, and have dogs, and lovely sheets and be totally fine. That was how I genuinely felt: complete. Surrendered. Unapologetic. Then I went on a road trip with my little dog from LA to Big Sur as my best friend in the whole world (I call her my baby sister, as she is closer to me than my bio sister, and she herself is an only child) was having a "baby moon" last hurrah camping weekend. There, I met her partner, and his best friend/brother type friend who had flown in from Mass for the camping weekend. We fell instantly in love, and a bunch of magical things happened, and I and the little doggie live here with him now. We are currently co-manifesting, buying our first home and getting more doggies.
Career wise- I got fired for the THIRD time in December. I had never been fired. I am a GREAT employee, blah blah - but ever since I moved to LA to work as a screenwriter, I have taken other jobs that are "practical," "safe," and toxic, draining, underpaying, etc. and NOT screenwriting... Yes, these jobs supported me to pay rent, have a car and a social life, and support myself as I built my portfolio and became a better writer and made connections in LA to manifest an Agent, etc. BUT I still kept taking these jobs because I actually didn't believe I could ever be a screenwriter. Then after being fired in December, I was done.
I sank into building up my own writing in many ways and finally broke through the heavy shadow I had around being seen. I worked directly to heal that and cinched my expense belt as tight as I ever have. My partner has taken care of me, and to accept his help is actually expansive for me because I have never been taken care of by a partner in that way, and it feels super loving, supportive, and healing. Then I had to expand to believe that my Career could manifest in this way.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: YES. In both of these of course. The magic dark between leaving the 15 min late date and meeting my partner was about 2-3 weeks. It was mostly pretty positive. I just tried to ride through the doubt. Magic dark for Career felt like 15 years of magic dark, but really it all came together pretty quickly as soon as I found the courage to break through the last blocks discussed above.
How did your manifestation come through?: Basically, for both Career and partnership, I hit a breaking point of the way something had been going and truly accepted that I could not do it like that anymore. I had peeled back many layers through the 1.5+ years I had already put into this work (began June 2020) and was at the point to deliberately move through the block, expand, and take deliberate action.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: Partnership was 15 months, and Career was 20-21 months.
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: I am always doing this work very consistently.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I make time for it basically every day, but of course, I am careful to take breaks and not engage in perfectionism or push myself too hard. I do the journaling every other day or so and do a DI probably 4-5 days a week if not more. Sometimes I will just do these as I am still laying in bed and just pop headphones and mask on. Sometimes I will do them in my infrared blanket, or other times I will listen as I do gentle stretching or sun salutations.
