Building An FU Fund & Finding An Aligned Job
Name: Adelle Jackman
Where do you reside?: Victoria, British Columbia, Canada
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: British and Canadian. Both of my grandfathers were coal miners. My dad started working at a mine at 17 years old but left to start a business at 27.
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
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What was on your manifestation list?: - FU Fund
- Move to Vancouver Island
- Bridge job/"For now job" (I'm an RN) - no shift work, daytime hours only, good coworkers, within a certain commuting distance. It's not a bridge job in the sense that I need it to act as a stepping stone in my career path. I wanted a job that would free me from the exhaustion and toxic environment I had been working in for 8+ years. I realized that there isn't much room for moving up in the nursing world without a shift into education or administration. Neither of those things interest me.
I wanted a job that let me get sufficient rest between shifts, had minimal coworker drama, where I felt valued, and was fairly compensated. A job that wouldn't take up mental and emotional space so that I have the freedom to shift my focus into getting clarity for the next phase of my career.
- Bridge job criteria: flexible hours, easy commute, excellent coworkers, low stress, time passes quickly, easy to manage my time, laid back and friendly environment, pays well.
- Career change, entrepreneurship
- Partner
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I listened to every single podcast and supported episode. DIs daily. After starting with How to Manifest, I used the workshops as I felt called to. My biggest workshop tip is that the workshop you're avoiding is probably the one with the most growth for you.
Workshops: How to Manifest, Unblocked Shadow, Unblocked Inner Child, Unblocked Money, Rut, Rock Bottom, Boundaries
Blocks:
- I had a block/habit of expecting disappointment. Every time an opportunity would come, or something exciting would show up in my life, I would just assume automatically that it would be taken away from me - it was easier for me to cope with the certainty of not getting the things I want than it was to cope with uncertainty/getting hopes up.
- I had to grow my self-worth from nothing - I had health challenges as a child that kept me physically small and was bullied for being so small. In one school year, I was diagnosed with an endocrine disorder, told I could skip a grade and that I should consider an academic path. I was nine years old at the time, and it effectively ended my childhood. I felt a complete loss of control. Learning is a joy inherent to my being, and it was taken away from me. By high school, I barely handed my assignments in, but still managed to do well enough to get into a university program. I graduated from nursing school with distinction and made the dean's list.
- LOTS of shadow. I revisited Unblocked Shadow a few times.
What expanders did you find?: My first expander was Lacy, of course. When she said that she used to be a doormat, I realized that it was possible to move from the place of super-low self-worth to a place of high self-worth and confidence. She's also an expander for people with endocrine issues who don't have the energy to give to a physically demanding job and found a way to have success. Lacy's openness about her own ongoing manifestation journey is so expansive.
One expander started a successful online skincare business that allows her to earn an income (and employ others). She has a chronic condition that made it difficult for her to commit to a traditional full-time job.
One expander created an online business that allows her to live abroad and provides income while getting her master's degree.
Lots of community expanders set firm boundaries and said no. Heather, the coach with her podcast episodes, not settling. Listening to the podcasts daily really helps me to stay in the right frame of mind.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: FU Fund: I had two back-to-back tests with vehicle expenses, first for new tires and then brakes. I had to empty my savings to pay for them, and I told myself to trust that the money would come back to me because I was saving it for the move. The third test was trickier. I was still listed as a casual employee for my old employer, and I wanted to remain on their list because I thought it would make the Vancouver Island job search easier if I could access the internal postings. There were administrative changes going on at the time, and my request to stay on the casual list kept going unaddressed. I got the ping one day to stop pushing, so I listened to it. My casual position lapsed, so it was a bit of a cliff jump because it was closing a portal.
Bridge Job: I jumped off a cliff and moved without a job to go to, but I had manifested the FU fund and had money to last several months. During my job search, the only opportunities coming up were not aligned with what I was looking to create for myself. They were all either beyond the distance I was willing to commute, didn't pay enough, or did work that I felt wouldn't be sustainable for me. I even looked at accounting jobs and had considered making a complete field change. I interviewed for one job that was advertised as work from home, but that wasn't what they were offering.
I had to sit through a 1-hour panel interview, and they were horrible with communication. Their communication expectations from me were very high, but they waited weeks and weeks to move to the next stage. The only reason I didn't remove myself from the competition was that my FU fund was running out, and I needed a job. The commute for that job would have been over an hour every morning. I knew it was a test, but I had to go through the motions.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I had an extended magic dark of over four months (July to November). I even heard actual crickets for the first time in my life during it, which I knew was a sign that it would all work out.
I was checking job postings daily. I had one friend forwarding me opportunities that she heard of through her own network. The opportunities seemed to disappear totally, and the only postings available were the ones I wasn't willing to apply for. In early October, my grandad passed away. My mom wasn't able to go to the UK, so my aunt asked if I could come in place of my mom. My parents made it financially possible for me to go. While I was there, I looked a few times on the websites, but there was still nothing new, and I was grieving. I'm really glad that the timing worked so that I was able to be there with my aunt and grandma. It felt like I was meant to be there.
When I came back to Canada at the end of October, I gave myself a few days to get over jet lag before going back to the job search. I told myself that I would apply for one of the nursing jobs in town by a certain date. It wasn't a desirable job, but I was 100% not willing to ask for my old job back. I was at the point where I needed the money and I thought I could maybe work it short term while continuing the job search. The date came, and I just could not bring myself to apply for that job, so I told myself one more week. Before the week was up, I got a message out of the blue from a former coworker. She had no idea that I was looking for a job. I started my new job two weeks later.
The magic dark is challenging. When you're looking for certainty, it can make you feel really restless when you know you've taken all the action you can take without dog paddling and that the only thing you can do is surrender. In my case, there was an element of timing and a bigger picture that would unfold. I wasn't expecting to lose my grandfather, and I definitely wasn't expecting to fly to the UK on such short notice. I knew a job would come, but I still had to sit with the discomfort of uncertainty.
DIs I liked for the Magic Dark: Authentic Self, Reinforcing Grace and Confidence, Reinforcing Deservingness and Abundance, Health and Body, Prosperity
How did your manifestation come through?: FU Fund: I was shocked when I got this because it wasn't something I was channeling a lot of energy into manifesting. I wrote it on my list because Lacy kept talking about FU funds. This isn't the first time I've unwittingly manifested something, but I think maybe I just wrote it down like a ping. After the casual position with my old employer lapsed, I was offered a pension payout. Part of this was in cash, and it was enough for me to use as an FU fund to take a break from working after the move, so I wouldn't have to look for a job immediately.
Bridge job: I couldn't believe it when a former coworker contacted me out of the blue. It was two weeks after I had returned from the UK. I hadn't spoken to this person in close to 2 years. She put me in contact with her manager, and from there, it went so smoothly. I even had a bit of a test with starting the job - I was hired for a different role but ended up being put into a much better fitting role for me. My coworkers have been great. The job is within the commute I had listed. It's laid back, low stress, lots of friendly people. My time at work passes quickly, and so far, I've been able to manage my time without feeling overwhelmed.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: I started TBM in the summer of 2020, but my list evolved. The FU fund took 5 months to manifest. I listed the bridge job nine months before manifesting it.
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: I had finished the Unblocked Shadow and Unblocked Inner Child workshops a few months before manifesting the FU fund. DIs I was using daily. It takes time to integrate what you've excavated during the workshops.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I listen to podcasts and supported episodes every day on my drive to work (I've listened to them all). The DIs I use almost every night. Sometimes I fall asleep. When I do, I know that just means I need the rest more than I need the DI. I've gotten so good at doing this work that I don't often need a DI to uncover or reprogram the block - I can get straight to the root of it almost instantly. I love the reinforcing DIs. They're really good for supporting you when you've reached the point where there isn't any further action for you to take. I'm terribly impatient, and part of this practice is learning to surrender to timing.
Recommendations:
- Be patient with yourself. Give yourself time to navigate the work with your increasing self-worth. It's new, and it's not easy.
- Triggers are gold. They're where all the growth is.
- Some blocks are stubborn, so it's helpful to write down or journal the things that helped you through the block in case you need to remind yourself.
- The workshop you're avoiding is probably the one you need most.
- Get comfortable confronting your discomfort. As a practice, I confront everything that doesn't feel good on a daily basis and this is what has given me the ability to make choices from a place of strength, worth, and deservingness.
- When you start TBM and feel the first surge of self-worth, it's kind of wild. I remember thinking, "I hope no one tries to argue with me today because I'm ready to fight!" I was on a self-worth soapbox telling everyone who would listen that they needed to make high self-worth choices.
- Your authentic code and list will shift as you get deeper into your authenticity.
- Rather than traditional journaling, it works best for me to talk things out with someone and then make a note in my Notes app, so I can refer back to the lightbulb moments.
- I take breaks from work when I feel called to. As a recovering perfectionist, it's easy to pressure me to be constantly striving. Usually, after a few weeks' break, I find myself organically diving back into the work.
In the same vein as how Heather talked about figuring out your "fast-track to manifesting", I think it's also good to figure out which aspects of the process come easily to you and are part of your manifestation learning curve. For example, I can't ignore pings - they're almost an out-of-body experience. I'm a manifesting generator. I rarely get "100% Yes" feelings. When I do, I have no choice but to follow. An example of something that has been a learning curve for me is discerning the difference between an aligned no and a step beyond my comfort zone. Knowing this is part of my learning curve, I'll slow down and take the time to work through those situations with a DI.
Want to remain anonymous?: No
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: When I first created my authentic code, rest was one of my top priorities. I didn't realize how badly I needed the rest and the break from work. I think the FU fund and magic dark came through for me because I was so deeply in need of time to rest and decompress after 8+ years in intensive care nursing. Starting the new job, I began to realize the ways that my old job was harmful. I no longer need to go to work bracing myself for a toxic environment. Even though what I manifested was an FU fund and a job, I feel like what I really manifested was time to heal, and I'm so grateful that I was given that time.
When I reformulated my authentic code during the manifestation challenge, I no longer needed rest.
This work has profoundly changed my life. I'm so grateful to have found TBM, and I can't wait to share my next manifestation story!
