Setting Difficult Boundaries & Finding Inner Peace
Name: Lacey Castro
Where do you reside?: Maine
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: No
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I completed the Unblocked Inner Child workshop. I discovered that even before I was born, I believed I was a burden. My needs as a child were an inconvenience for my parents and caused me to shrink, to make myself as small as possible, so I didn't take up any space. This is a common theme I am continuing to unblock now.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: My mother and father, and even step daughter, not respecting my boundaries. I was overwhelmed with feeling like an energy dumping ground for people who are supposed to love me. I had to use my voice, make myself set new boundaries and not allow them to be crossed. I finally blocked my father's phone calls so he could no longer make me feel small.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I believe I am in a Magic Dark now. I listened to the microdosing episode and really felt as though it would help along with my therapy. I ordered from what seemed a reputable, legitimate online website. I have recently discovered it was a scam. They ended up taking $700 from me with fake promises of insurance deposit refunds upon delivery. As a stay-at-home mom with severe anxiety and depression, I feel ashamed and guilty for losing my husband's hard-earned money on something that was intended to help. But instead of being ashamed and small, I will try to accept that this was a lesson I need to learn and get to the root of how I feel and why.
How did your manifestation come through?: I'm not sure if properly set boundaries are a manifestation, but it came through as very hurtful experiences that I decided to no longer take
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: 2 years
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I try to use the work daily. It is a journey and something I think my daughters should learn to use as well, so they have a foundation of tools to use throughout life.
Want to remain anonymous?: No
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: I think the hardest part for me has been feeling the reality of setting boundaries. Boundaries are painful, both setting them and when they are crossed. They can be full of fear, especially when setting them up with a parent. But honestly, once I was fully in my power, and it was my 13-year-old daughter who made me see my power, I set a difficult boundary with my father, and I felt an immediate release of fear, worry, anxiety, and guilt.
