Letting Go & Manifesting A Job I Love
Name: Rachael Yahne
Where do you reside?: Los Angeles, CA
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: Grew up in a very small rural town in the mountains of Washington state in an agnostic household with a strong money scarcity mindset.
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: No
What was on your manifestation list?: I manifested a job I love, but more importantly, this work has transformed me and what I already have: my self-concept, my relationships, and my overall contentment. The reason I'm sharing a testimonial is that I want others to see that even if you aren't manifesting things on your list, the work can change you and how you feel about yourself and thus change your experience of your own life, even if you don't manifest a single thing on the outside! I'll share more in the next prompt.
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I've done all the workshops! I did my first workshop at age 30, the Unblocked Shadow workshop, which led me to the love workshop and eventually a year-long membership. After that first workshop blew my mind, I was hooked. I ended up leaving an eight-year relationship at age 30 (which you as women know was terrifying) and challenging my mother's alcoholism. Some parts of my life look the same, but on the inside, absolutely everything is different. I think it's important that people hear that even if you aren't manifesting new things, you can manifest new outcomes out of current situations and completely change the way you see yourself, and that can make your entire life feel radically different. Two years ago, I began pairing this work with my studies on divine masculine and feminine energies.
With the book Women Who Run With Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes and F*ck Like A Goddess by Alexandra Roxo, and the book 11 Rings by Phil Jackson (the legendary coach of the Lakers who was able to tame some of the biggest masculine egos in the industry) I was able to reclaim my own feminine energy and leave my masculine, do-it-all, hyper-independent ways. The masculine energy was perpetuating my family's scarcity mindset with an anxious grip on everything from relationships to jobs and money; it equated to so many people-pleasing and putting others on pedestals. With the DI's and workshops, along with my own studies and exercising and liberating my divine feminine, the work all culminated in me being able to receive for the first time. The work of John Wineland has been instrumental now as well, and I also recently joined Codependents Anonymous, where I'm expanding my shadow work.
Together, all these tools have helped me unleash the woman I've always wanted to be but never felt deserving of being: someone kind, in flow, feminine, lovable, and loved. It's been absolutely liberating. My relationships are so much better, I'm so much happier, and life feels so much easier. I'm so in love with my true self now that I've finally let her out! I feel free of the codependent relationships that kept me so stuck and in a space where manifestations couldn't come through. I finally trust my intuition (a divine feminine superpower!), and my relationship with the universe has never been stronger. It's been an incredible ride.
What expanders did you find?: My expanders have been mostly my magnetic parents and then just about every single podcast guest you've had. I find that expanders come in and out of my life quickly; they don't always develop into relationships or even last more than a few minutes. Sometimes, it can happen as quickly as seeing someone moving in their grace and taking that cue right in the here-and-now. I've paired
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: I've received so many tests: relationships that looked like fairy tales that ended up being abused physically and emotionally. Job offers that I pulled teeth to get and to increase my salary, only to realize at the 9th hour that it wasn't the right place for me and having to stay broke and scared until the right thing came along. Chances to revert back to the person I was before all this work, which would put others first to the point of sacrificing myself and hurting myself in order to be loved and accepted. I've failed many tests, but I've passed many too.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I'm not sure I have! But I'm not complaining about that!
How did your manifestation come through?: I was offered one job, where I negotiated a 10K salary increase and a few other perks. After weeks of negotiating, they agreed, and I wasn't in a place to say no: I desperately needed work. But I knew in my heart it wasn't right; I turned it down, and only about a week later was offered a job that I absolutely love, with a salary that paid $20K more than the other job's negotiated increased salary. I love my job so much, it's incredible to have watched that happen, and it all happened when I 'let go and let God, ' as they say. Surrender and trust were key.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: The job took about six months to a year. But the manifestation of this true, whole, authentic and worthy version of myself took about five years, I'd say. That sounds like a long time, but I also had been acting in that trapped, scared mindset for 30 years, so to reverse all those habits of people pleasing and completely change in terms of my self-respect and deservingness, five years doesn't feel like that long! And there were so many beautiful realizations and awakenings along the way I wouldn't change a thing.
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: Every single day. They were sometimes what really got me through the toughest days of my life.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I'm taking a break from my pathway membership to focus on meditating in ways that require I trust my own internal compass; the DI's are amazing, but I also want to practice trusting myself, following my intuition to see where I want to go and what needs love and healing. I'm also doing meditations that have me practice being in the feeling of my own divine power and grace rather than just going in, seeing it, and reprogramming. That helps me live out my day in that deservingness energy. I love an insight timer for this, or just stillness and breath. As you can imagine, I often approach healing and self help with codependent behaviors (thus why I'm in Coda meetings now!) so I like to practice not being too religious about one way of healing or evolving, so that I don't become hooked or lose trust in myself to not go back to old ways of thinking.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle: @rachaelyahne
Want to remain anonymous?: No
Is there anything else you think we should know? If you made this process your own in any way, this is the perfect spot to share that.: I just want to say thank you. This work and this community have been so empowering and life-changing. I now meet with about six other pathway members online to share our wins and tests and encourage each other. We've been friends for two years now, and we just met in person for the first time to celebrate all we've been through together. I'm considering moving cities soon, and I make friends easily as is, but I'm honestly excited to find a local TBM group or community and make friends in the new city that way too! Anyway, thanks for everything. It's been incredible.
