Understanding the Energetics of My Work
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: Born in the suburb of Paris and moved to Germany 6 years ago
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: No
What was on your manifestation list?: - 36000€ netto yearly as a self-employed photographer (as a first money goal)
- a flat on my own in the center (I live w/ roommates atm)
- an aligned partner
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: I was a Pathway Member for a year and now subscribe to the Daily Practice. I had blocks around being seen, feeling safe, a scarcity mentality, and not speaking my needs. Also, I've heard on the podcast about trying to "cheat" or fake it to the Universe – "if I do this, then this should happen." I didn't understand at first what it meant, but it caught my attention. Sometime after, while journaling, I became aware that the little girl in me that was always trying to follow the rules and do the right things (to mostly please mom and the adults) was doing the same with the Universe. I realized that there was no "right thing," only aligned decisions and actions. Huge aha moment. Since then, I've been able to REALLY feel abundant and loved and safe, and I am feeling so magnetic! I no longer ask myself if it's the "right" decision but instead if it feels true to me.
What expanders did you find?: Colleagues photographers in Munich Young, happy, creative couples on instagram (@josephine_joseph)
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: I probably didn't pass tests most of the time. But I passed some recently that were really clear: - An ex-suitor that texted me after a year not talking to each other. We never met before, only texted, so typically I would have tried again and asked him on a date. Now I am manifesting as a guy that wants to take the initiative and pursue myself (I have the contrary happened as a pattern). This time seeing that despite him reaching out, he still didn't propose to meet, I let it go. - I decided to hold a personal photo project on a date where I could have been working for a 3-day gig with big money. And now I still have the gig with fewer days working but almost paid the same. - Accepted a date with (i think) a gentleman. He seems sweet and thoughtful. A few weeks ago, I would have thought he was weird and a bit old fashion LOL
How did your manifestation come through?: In two weeks, I've had some strong signs of magnetism: - a 30% summer sale in the mailbox for the dance courses I've been wanting to go to for a month (because of my finances right now I've only been thinking about it) - a date with a sweet guy that I met at a party - a free healing session discovered on the app MeetUp. And last but not least! - I've manifested a two-day photo gig at the price of an initial three-day gig. Quick explanation: the client needed a photographer for three days and has been asking several people (I suppose), but because it was last minute, it didn't work out for them. I could only do it for two days. Usually, I would panic and fear losing the opportunity for such money. (I started to work as a full-time photographer two years ago and am struggling to reach my money goals because I haven't been working enough.)
This time I didn't panic and was totally fine if I wasn't getting the job. Rapidly they accepted that I could only do two days and asked for my rate. Initially, they told me from the start what their budget was for the three days. But once we agreed on two days, somehow they asked me to make a proposal. After consulting a friend and colleague, I raised the price I at first wanted to suggest (here also one of my usual fear: rate proposal and being afraid to be too high but also to be "robbed" if I realized I could have asked for more. The truth is, my energetic money level is not the level of other experienced photographers, so yes, my prices may be lower than theirs atm. Now that I accept that, it's all good). So this time, I was aligned with my price. Even if it was less than my colleague's, it was still more than my initial thought. The client just accepted it...! This price is only 150€ less than their initial budget for three days. I was literally laughing out loud when I received the contract. I definitely thought they would try to discuss it.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: Almost two years. That's how long it took me to really understand the process. Still manifesting what is on my list and feeling it is around the corner.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I journal and do the DIs almost daily, and every time I'm activated even by small things: inner child and shadow, trigger, deservingness DIs a lot! Also unblocked, feeling worthy and authentic self. I finally understood this year that it was mostly about the everyday little triggers... Game changer. I used to fall asleep with DIs or feel "numb" to them. I've discovered they work best when doing my stretching in the morning. At some point in the meditation, I lay on the mat and closed my eyes. Sometimes I just go all the way through my stretching routine and reprogram whatever I need afterward with meditation music.
